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I've got a facebook picture right now of me sitting on Buffalo Girl, harnessed in, being rail meat, bundled up away from the cold dark sky. And every time I look at it, I can't help but think of those days where I wasn't worried or stressed or upset. I thought the world would continue on, just as it was on that boat. By day learning and sailing, and by night venturing into dense British Columbian forests before falling asleep to Isaac's guitar on our sardine can boat beds.

There was nothing I could want more; even the sea sickness is appealing right now. The power of being at the helm, the goofiness of rigging up bosun chairs, the team effort to get up to as many knots as possible. And that was just the sailing section.

Fuck, I miss NOLS so much at this moment and all that came with it. Its sad that I can't share that with anyone around me. I don't even think it's appropriate to email to my fellow NOLSies right now; of course I can always call Bonnie later.

I MISS YOU NOLS. I'll get back to it at some point. But right now I just have to push through day by day, piece by piece.

I hope you found someone you can drink fine wine with. Because I haven't found anyone.

I MISS YOU.

I'm touring to New Hampshire
Yah there's some good friends
I've been wanting to see
when I get back here
it's gonna be a whole other year
will you be around
but I want you to know I meant what I said when I said that I liked you
cause I really like you
still do

put your ear to the sky
and listen, my darling
oh, everything whispers
I love you

"Show me a 20 year old who isn't in love."
(House)

True true true.

I don't have an ISP. (Forms are due tomrrow? Who would have known?) But I didn't really want to DO a January ISP. I want to do a SUMMER ISP. You either need two math ISPs or two Biology ISPs. It's too bad I still don't know what my AOC is, nor do I have an adivsor to figure this out with. I guess I'll approach Gilchrist about how I can fit biology into the next two years - but she makes me really nervous.

Stressed, but I can do it. (Should I feel lame about being stressed by the ridiculous classes I'm actually taking?)

I need to be more responsible. This semester has been more than worthless and I think next semester will be the most valuable semester of my college career.

I am currently missing a few quasi-important things

my bike lock
my journal
my debit card
my student id
my birks
and some other (pink) stuff

As I'm about to fall asleep at 10:30, I'm thinking about all the things I'm thankful for. It is the season, right?

I'm thankful for this past year's experiences.
Guatemala, blueberries, my relationships with people and myself, a successful second semester, the journey I've been taking recently.

I'm thankful for the people in my life.
Corri, David, Randall, Brittney, Michael, Alex, Janie, Megan, Jill, Dennis, Jenba, Allie, Max, Robbie, Christina, Camille, Alton, Morgan, the welcoming and friendlier B-dormers, my beautiful new first year friends, all my past and current roommates, the kids like Rio, Carl, Jasmine, and John whom I don't see often enough, my Alton people who I haven't seen in too long, even MX people I don't keep track of,friendly and caring professors, and my supportive parents.

I'm thankful for special things.
My bike, my skis, my shelter, water, food, books, music. The sauna, my home, my safety, my health, Patty, my notebooks, extra small classes, honey bees.

I'm thankful for New College.
I'm thankful for the sun and our planet.

I'm thankful for my woods, the trees, and all the growing things (she provides).

I'm thankful for what peace exists. I am thankful for the possibility of peace that continues to exist.
I'm thankful for the love that exists within everyone, and the love that has been shown to me from so many people.

Apparently our sauna is finally complete and functioning.

It's going to be a good December.

you had yourself a crazy lover
you got a job up in alaska
you took the path of least resistance

I'm feeling this positive/negative.

How can someone so consistently mess up as much as every instance? How can someone so inconsistent mess up so consistently?

I like songs about drifters, books about the same. They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.

modest mouse

Foray into Pancake Making at New College #1:
Relatively bland.
Need more baking powder?
Really good with bananas.
Maple and brown sugar is way too sweet.
But bananas with maple and brown sugar is the bomb - even though that doesn't involve pancakes.
*I don't think I like the recipe I'm using. (I wish I had the one from home.)

To be continued later this week.

Pancakes tomorrow starting at 9:30 I think.
Come and get some if you wish.

The best part of my morning was when, as I was leaving my room at 6:45, I saw Carl and Rio sitting upstairs talking. They waved to me.

I just fed the bees, and I am starving. Pancakes? It's too bad I don't have bananas.

*no pancakes until tomorrow because I don't have baking powder, bananas, apples, blueberries, or chocolate chips.

I just ate an entire box of Strawberry Fields. RIDICULOUS BEHAVIOR.